Found Poem

All my instincts – they return

And the grand façade so soon will burn

If you dream of me

Like I dream of you

Remember, when your dreams have ended

Time can be transcended

Just remember me

I am outside

Give me peace

I am scared

And I’m alone

Healing comes so painfully

And it chills to the bone

All of my life I’ve been in hiding

Wishing there was someone just like you

Now that you’re here

I know that you’re the one to pull me through

I hear a voice: “You must learn to stand up

For yourself, ‘cause I won’t always be around.”

Years go by and I’m here, still waiting

Where the rain-worsened snowman was

So I came down the hill

Of course I was hurt

But then I started to think

And I fall once again from my own ideals

And I fight back the fear of something

That I don’t understand, but I learned when I was young

Please don’t worry, lover

It’s really bursting at the seams

This is fact – not fiction – for the first time in years

Somehow I can’t seem to find

The quiet inside my mind

3:02 – The space in this room

Has turned on me

And I think it’s gonna be a long, long time

Till touch-down brings me round again to find

You know that when the truth is told

You can get what you want

Or you can just get old

Wish there was something I could say or do

I can resist anything

But a temptation from you

So in my dreams

We share this dance together

And I’ll never win–

Keep my eyes closed forever

I read your words

Line by empty line

True, my fate desires

Destiny denied

Still I can’t go on

Watching patience lie

No, I can’t forget this evening

Or your face as you were leaving

But I guess that’s just the way the story goes

You’ll never see the life that I live

I’ll never live the life that wakes me in the night

You’ll say you’d never let me fall from hopes so high

I understand what I am still to proud to mention

But never is a promise

And I’ll never need a lie.

TL

1:48

7 January 2005
Note: These words are a mostly mish-mash of song lyrics.