Instead

Sometimes all I want

Is a big, fat eraser

And a truly magical marker

Then I could rewrite history

To how I want it

I’m not talking about

Preventing earthquakes

Or saving my wallet from

That Jack-in-the-Box dumpster at the beach

I’d like to save my own Titanic

A ship I thought I could lead

But which took me to icebergs instead

I’d go back to the week of

April 4, 2004

Instead of avoiding you,

I’d cherish every moment together.

Instead of spending my nights

On long distance phone calls,

I’d spend them with you.

Instead of breaking your heart,

I’d hold it gently in my hands.

Instead of telling you there wouldn’t be another time,

I’d tell you I wanted to keep trying.

Instead of walking away from you,

I’d never let you go.

Instead of shattering you,

I’d wrap you up in my arms

To protect you

I’d go visit you

And you’d come visit me

Everything would be great

But I don’t have that eraser

Or the magic marker

So instead of my easy dreams,

I have to work hard

To rebuild another ship.

TL

3:40pm

2 September 2004